May 10 2008
WWIR: MAY 4 through MAY 10, 2008 (so much for my permalinks…)
WL: I has a sad. And it occurred to me that there’s a curve. The first time is painful. Then it gets easier, until you’re almost laughing about it. But then… you poke the same bruise one time too many, and suddenly it’s not funny anymore. I have One Last Ditch Effort up my sleeve, but at the moment, that just seems like drawing a bullseye on said bruise and inviting another poke. I’ll probably do it anyway because I couldn’t live with the “if only I’d tried it” factor, but I don’t have the heart for it at the moment. (It’s a pulpy mess on the floor. Awaiting transplant.)
NB: First two of seven “chapters” fleshed out. I really believed I would have it finished by today, but Day Job was very hostile toward the writing schedule this week. Still plenty of wiggle room with the word count. Hopefully done by next weekend. Done done, as in subbed. There’s the benefit of writing short: not a huge, heartbreaking investment of time and energy.
Blog: Wrote June 20 column for RTB (yes, June 20—I’m still a neurotic wreck about “guest appearances,” and the sooner I get them turned in, the less my sanity deteriorates). The gals’ POV from the Hero Matchmaker thing, and definitive proof that writers are evil. Now it’s official—you couldn’t pay me enough to be a romance novel heroine. If I’m on the schedule after that (heh), I’ll buckle down and do something slightly less fruity.
9/30
11/4
11/4
11/25
May 11th, 2008 at 5:59 am
I’m so very much rooting for the NB. Want me some blind, starving bloodsucker.
May 11th, 2008 at 8:46 am
Please tell me the sad isn’t related to the “must be kismet” somebody who would have given you a great “how I found mine” story. Because that would suck. I’d have a sad myself. Dammit.
Having seen a couple pages of the NB, my completely selfish recommendation is that you post it immediately. Mistah Hilliard could grope his way around me anytime. I will, of course, hurt you if you don’t submit it, tho. Gotta keep moving forward, babe, and to hell with anybody too short-sighted to get on the train with you.
May 11th, 2008 at 11:40 am
Yes, kismet failed me. Don’t be sad. I feel better than I did yesterday. I’ve already been in this place—acceptance that I need to let it go and move on. I think the GH final gave me a boost of confidence I didn’t deserve and put me in a place of hopefulness, so getting back to this place involved a crash. (Curse you, hope!) I limped away to write another day (and another 2,000 words). No big.
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As for the NB: I really think it’ll be done this week. I believe they’re having a 2-month turnaround on responses, so—given Mistah Hilliard’s deficient assholery and unfortunate sense of humor, coupled with my inability to construct an interesting sentence (okay, it still stings a little)—you’ll probably see it here sometime in July. Har har.